When The Healer Needs Healing
Sometimes even the healer needs healing. As a healer and as a generally very healthy woman, I didn’t anticipate being side tracked for the entire summer. Yet that is exactly where I found myself, being at the receiving end of healing, love and prayers. This has been one summer that has taught me more about the power of love, the power of self-love and the power of mindfulness and acceptance.
Three years ago, I was diagnosed with breast cancer and very fortunately have remained cancer free for three years, yay! I am not a person who gets sick a lot otherwise, maybe a cold every now and then, but I eat well, exercise and practice good self-care. Yet even the most diligent of us can get blindsided by a nuisance affliction, that can be no fun! Kidney stones. Have you had them? Do you know people who have had them? They are hereditary in my family, and I have passed a few many years ago in my early 20’s. And so though not entirely surprising it came as a shock when I found out I was a walking rock garden! I love stones and crystals and collect and use them in my day to day work, but this is not one I want to save space for on my shelf 😊
I needed to have a procedure to laser blast the stones out from my left side first, before moving on to my right side. Yes, they have taken up residence on both sides of my precious body! The procedure was one that required general anesthesia (GA) on an outpatient basis. GA scares the heck out of me and so this was not entered into lightly, yet it needed to be done and fairly quickly. I use self Reiki and meditation and prayer every day and although these lovely efforts didn’t get rid of the stones I can for certain vow they kept the pain at bay (virtually none) and helped me to approach this foreign landscape with far more courage than fear.
The power of Reiki and meditation helped guide me to a place of center daily leading up to my procedure as well as the day of the procedure. Reiki helped prepare my body for traditional medical intervention. Reiki was a wonderful complement that guided me to that day from a place of calm acceptance, helping me to release my fear and trust that I would be okay. And so, all went well, and I was released the same day with an internal stent that I had to keep in place for two weeks. As the day drew near to have it removed, I recognized that I wasn’t entirely feeling myself. I continued to practice Reiki, meditate and start my days with prayer, all of which helped more than I can even describe here.
Three days after the stent removal on August 17, my father died. Fortunately, the day prior to his transitioning, I got to spend the day with him holding his hand and whispering ‘I love you Dad’ many times and letting him know it is okay to let go. I am so very grateful to have shared that time with him while he was still lucid. He recognized me squeezed my hands and we both shed a few tears knowing this was likely the last time we would hold each other’s hands for a long time. I was for the next few days emotionally and physically spent. I had no energy for either myself or others.
Not surprisingly four days after his death I landed in the ER with a bad infection. I spent two nights including the night I went in and had an emergency procedure to rid my body of etheric debris holding me back. I am still unwavering in my hold on Reiki helping me get through this entire ordeal! My body and my spirit needed healing and I believe with everything going on in my life, it was the perfect storm of chakras gone awry! I laugh a little when I write that and although none of this is funny I find humor is a must serving during such challenging times. My Muladhara, root chakra, my Anahata, heart chakra and not surprisingly my Manipura, solar plexus chakra all were stuck and though I would not wish that infection upon anyone or want to go through that again, I feel like it was my body’s way of telling me it was time to get my energy flowing and balanced once again. The Manipura, solar plexus chakra is all about strength and personal power, experiencing self confidence in a way that can transform our lives. Living with intent and releasing those arrows of intention with detachment from the outcome. That’s right acceptance and mindfulness. I call this faith, hope, courage and of course marching at a higher vibration to help my body and spirit to heal.
I feel better now than I felt four months ago before all of this started. And although I have a short road left to deal with some lingering stone dust I like to call it 😊, I am stronger now both spiritually and physically. And I have learned a lot about my body. As we get older our bodies change and with these changes comes the need to shift our perspectives on what we believe is good self-care. I need to make dietary changes that essentially un-do everything I learned about healthy anti-cancer eating for the past three years. Not eliminating but more balancing to help my body be a space that no longer wants to grow stones. This is something I will share more about in future blog posts! As always, I would love to hear from anyone who wants to share their story. With an estimated one in ten people having a kidney stone at some point in their lives, there cannot be too many outlets for helpful information. As I mentioned I do hope to offer some additional dietary information in future posts and if you have something to add please feel free to comment or email me directly at email@example.com.
I am back now 😊 I recognize that I haven’t been active on social media or taking new clients for the summer. I needed to shut down for a while to allow myself to receive all the love, healing and prayers that were and continue to be bestowed on me. I will be forever grateful to my doctors and Falmouth Hospital for taking such good care of me, and grateful for all my friends and family and strangers alike that helped lift me up when I was down, and I was! There is no real dignity in being sick, yet I learned humility and how to accept…that’s it, just how to accept. I am a firm believer, even before this, that acceptance is the path to new beginnings. This does not mean I accept my body being in a place of ‘need’ all the time! No acceptance means standing in the moment of what is surrounding me and accepting that this is where I need to be at that moment and allowing all the good to flow even during a challenging time. Accepting so the major life shift can move us onto a higher plane and vibration. Reiki, both self-treatments, as well as receiving from loving friends is what helped keep my body ready to reach the point where I am now. I also feel like my flow of Reiki to give is stronger and that my connection to divine spirit has elevated to a higher level as well.
Blessings of light and love ~Sarah